I guess I should stop waiting, huh?
I hate being wrong and letting this go just seems wrong.
Usually, I have a really good grip on myself and my emotions.
But right now, as far she's concerned...(and obviously, this is no longer my call), I just feel like this is wrong.
Being apart is wrong. Not being mad with her is wrong. Not feeling like she's a total bitch is wrong. Still being in love with her is very much wrong.
It's a feeling of stasis that i'm not sure I've ran into before. Being together, but not.
Something's got to give or break...I'm wanting the best for me, but expecting not to get it. it's funny that the one thing I've always been sure of, enough to put myself out there against all my emotional shielding.
For once in my life, I have no idea what to do next and that scares the living shit out of me.
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