I'm in a constant state of destruction right now.
I wake up just pulling enough hopefulness to get me through the day
It's usually all spent out by the end of the day.
So many external things going on right now.
Money issues, girlfriend issues, family crap, call center jobs
It feels like it all tears me apart and I know it does.
But somehow, I get up in the (perhaps) foolish belief that it'll get better.
I'm not even sure how I do it anymore.
It's not faith, my faith in people lapses a while ago.
Stubbornness, perhaps.
I build myself up only to get broken down.
Is this what being an adult is about?
the ability to let things nip at you, run you down, until there's a little breakdown and then start again?
Sure, I could remove the stressors....but me living in Walden would never work.
Posting related song now.
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